Wednesday, October 18, 2006
UNREQUITED LOVE
It was an unrequited love from the start...
Saw him during a school competition and it was love at first sight. He had this special aura around him that makes him the limelight in my life, everybody just seems to dull in comparison. His smile is so charming and warm that i find myself silly staring back at him. i simply just couldn't take my eyes off him. However never did i expect that it was going be the start of an agonizing journey that make me feel heartbroken for the first and last time...
Since then, I was extremely aware of his every movement and behaviour, sensitive to his mood, when his happy i am too, when his sad so am I. Apparently so is he, but to another girl. I guess thats what people call "love blindness"; you are blind to everybody's feeling except the special one. Your whole body senses seems to be only functionally actively for him, willingly sacrificing yourself secretly just to meet his every needs.
Since he don't have his eyes on me, i only had to follow behind him secretly. Watching his back, and hoping he would turn back and glance back and look at me. But he never did, not even once...
It was an unrequited love from the start...
Saw him during a school competition and it was love at first sight. He had this special aura around him that makes him the limelight in my life, everybody just seems to dull in comparison. His smile is so charming and warm that i find myself silly staring back at him. i simply just couldn't take my eyes off him. However never did i expect that it was going be the start of an agonizing journey that make me feel heartbroken for the first and last time...
Since then, I was extremely aware of his every movement and behaviour, sensitive to his mood, when his happy i am too, when his sad so am I. Apparently so is he, but to another girl. I guess thats what people call "love blindness"; you are blind to everybody's feeling except the special one. Your whole body senses seems to be only functionally actively for him, willingly sacrificing yourself secretly just to meet his every needs.
Since he don't have his eyes on me, i only had to follow behind him secretly. Watching his back, and hoping he would turn back and glance back and look at me. But he never did, not even once...
Didn't he know my feelings for me? Or do he choose to feign ignorant? Maybe its better if we continue this way, at least we get to be friends, and i can get to see him from here.
One-sided love was both blissful and painful. Blissful because i can be near him, thats all i need. His presence can make my life suddenly seems so colourful; the light of my life. Everytime i am near him, i can feel my heart beat painfully against my chest, so loud and furiously that its been a miracle that he can't hear it at all. Painful because he only has eyes for another girl, gazing only at her.
Never have i felt like this before, such a surge of emotions that is is exremely scary. So scary that i felt like giving up. But whenever i felt like giving up, his warm smile would appear in my mind, and i'm lost in his charm again and again and again...
This is a story i make up, strike by a moment of inspiration! hope it dun sound weird! Do give me ur feedback, thanks!